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BOO to you chris brown…see lah you kena punishment for hitting a girl…your boo somemore. tsk tsk…girls are for sayang sayang not *dish*dish*dish* pain one leh!

guess no more umbrealla for you during the rainy days anymore eh eh eh?

careful the lightning after all you have done…confim you no air anymore!

dun do it again lah! i still got listen to your music ok.

…for the year only lah! you wish i’ll stop huh! ha ha

like every other year, 2008 has been event filled. from…oh man i got no recollection of january to may! i can only remember i gave birth in may and the rest is a blur…very blur!

ok this year i lost lots of things in the taxi – till now still no sound of my snuday school materials. office got fire – UNTIL today, then we got new ceiling and new door. i stood and squat around my office for the whole day until finish. grateful to the ah-ne workers and the lian-bang boys for working willingly with their pearly whites shining through the day.

God has been good. my heart has open to many things He teach and i still struggling to follow them…’what would Jesus do?’ will be in my mind into the new year. i’ve also learnt to listen and be more understanding  and sensitive to everyone. hope i have been sensitive to you too.

victoria and dorothy are God’s bestest gift for me this year and forever. watching them grow everyday is my greatest pleasure. victoria hates food, dorothy drank too much milk, victoria smile silently with gladness, dorothy screams with joy. one fat fat one skinny skinny. victoria’s creamy and dorothy’s honey coated. this pair of sister is 100% opposite in everyway….just like bikermice and me (^_^)

for my losing memory sake, little nonya rocks at this point of time! and i can’t get into the year’s most happening FACEBOOK! guess everyone is rushing in to wish everyone.

this year, i’m stretch to the max and surprisingly, i didn’t snap and now i can still blog. see wonderful God is.

i’m looking forward to another new year to God’s challenges ahead for me. with God, all thing are possible

have a joyful, healthy and blessing filled year!

there’s a song that goes…

this world is not my home

i’m just a passing through

my treasures are laid up, somewhere beyond the blue

the angels beckon me from Heaven’s open door

and i can’t feel at home in this world anymore

O Lord, you know i have no friend like you

if heaven’s not  my home then Lord what will i do?

the angels beckon me from Heaven’s open door

and i can’t feel at home in this world anymore

guess this just sums up my year. friends are dead, friends of friends are dead. all young and promising. people losing hope in life, giving up their marriages, the office on fire, time is short..focusing on Jesus everyday! just got an sms from elaine asking about paulyn and friend’s arrival to their destination, tranisiting in bangkok. ah ma’s worried if her dear grand daughter has safely arrived or stuck in the troubled sawadee-ka airport. after some ’sorry, the subscriber is currently not available’ i begin to panic too…ding dong ding dong later, finally got another source saying they are all safe and have arrived their destination *wipe sweat*

where are your treausre? my kids, my family are such dear things to me. everything have to come to an end someday, like it or not. we all have to return to God someday. sigh…just that its hard to deal with the feely part of the it. God, be there to comfort me when i need you ok…

last sunday at our chinese service, once again i’m reminded in isaiah 61:1, 10

Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners..

I delight greatly in the LORD;
my soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation
and arrayed me in a robe of righteousness,
as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest,
and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.

it was a beautiful sermon in mandarin. i duno how to express it here…join me in my church chinese service no.149 geylang road #02-07 every sunday at 2pm.

are there still people you bear a grudge with 10years ago and forgotten but still ignoring that person? time to take a step back and just make up lah. whatever that could have happen, happened already. let God take over. Love your neighbour as yourself. its never an easy task to be a christian BUT it is easy to receive salvation.  this whole year in church i’m reminded so many time how to be a christian…argh…so hard. dun criticise lah, remove the plank in your eye before removing the dust from your brother’s. its sad when its the ultimate christian who are the most critical. once again focus focus…what would Jesus do??

the sermon also mention something in the bible that says that Jesus not a handsome-handsome kinda man. its easy for brad pit to have many followers but it was because of what Jesus DID that attract the attention

my thoughts are jumble up, its friggin 2.30am yawn…anyhow have a blessed day people…must say this

GOD LOVE YOU!!

go bless someone today. no one to bless? wanna sponsor some goodybags for KK hospital ha ha ha…drop me a message.

have you ever said good bye to someone and thinking that its the last time you gonna see that someone as he turns his back and walk away? its a tough year for me saying good bye forever to so many friends and relative. deleting their names from my handphone and email from my yahoo. nobody’s gonna manage their facebook anymore.

the good bye is forever…i wonder what so good about the bye.

bikermice’s buddy has finish his time here and have gone….well hopefully to a better place.

Dearest Hian Peng,

i wonder was it a painful day for you when it all happen or were you worried about that unsend email at work or if there is someone you wanted to say ‘i love you’ to but just can’t reach for the phone to sms. wish you could tell us. i’m glad i didn’t manage to convince bikermice not to meet you last week, not knowing that would be the last night, just you and him, sharing your day over a glass of cool beer, bet you miss that now.

bikermice miss you too…a lot.

its hard to ignore the fact that you no longer can ‘date’ my bikermice. it breaks my heart to know that bikermice now is one friend less. but you are forever in his heart n in our memory. your voice is forever in our wedding video. thank you for being w bikermice at his life changin moment of his life, in camp, putting on the red beret, weddings…thankyou for all the car rides that i’ve been in…i’ve always teel biekrmice i love your car. i’m sorry i didn’t do my job to share with you about the Creator but thank you for reminding us this day to share Christ with everyone. i hope that one time you came church meant something to you.

thank you for being a friend.

love,
Mrs Bikermice

is God really coming? have you done your duties? have you loved your neighbour as yourself or are you still sour with a friend. guess its not too late to be thick skin and make up…just in case they leave quietly…forever.

today, i have dare dare left dorothy at home to accomplish my one million and one thing. whenver i think about the baby or even typing this, i can feel my ‘milk bar’ filling up. i can only resume my motherly duty 6 hourse later, pray that boobs will not leak cuz i got no breast pad today! yikes! it will be such a sight for the kids ha ha ha ha!!!

i hope dorothy WILL NOT struggle with milk bottle today and just enjoy the ‘ice cream’ breastmilk ha ha…

oh ma ma i miss her… and her…

Dear God,
as i’m preparing for the children program now, i pray that you will prepare the hearts of the kids who will be learning about John3:16. May they feel your love. I pray for Shirley who’s leading the most important part of today’s program to teach the children ‘do you believe?’. use us fully, Lord.

Amen.

so many things happen last week

-met an old friend on FaceBook, realise his son died couple of years ago. read blog felt so sad but was encouraged by friend at the same time

-met the cleft lip baby girl

-got problem with some christians, never felt so heavy before.

-got problem with some non-christians, never felt so heavy before.

-talk a friend who’s struggling with being aimless in life (God help him!)

-death of my nephew

well on a lighter note…

-dorothy is preparing flip completely. now she reach 90degree already

and she so pretty now

-start face painting. i’m addicted to it. doing it again on 28 Sept for children’s day.

-found my very first prayer partner

-my period is back (not so lighter note, quite heavy kekeke…cramps yucks!) but also mean i’m releasing eggs again!

-victoria learnt to say 1-5 in bahasa indonesia. made a deal with my trusty helper ms Thiam, if victoria can say 1-10 in bahasa indonesia, i’ll give her $10 to which she say ,’huh? so little?’ ha ha…deal is stil on, victoria is not achieveing anything yet…hur hur hur…come and get the ten dollar neh ni neh ni boo booooo…

-STILL breastfeeding.

NO THAT DANIEL YOU ARE THINKING OF LAH! beter make myself clear before you become concern n start calling me and asking me ‘WHAT HAPPEN HUH?’ heh heh…i know you’re concern for me lah *blush*blush* kekeke…

anyway let’s not spoil the mood…ahem…

my nephew passed away 160908 night. received the news, heart stopped a second. called niece and cry together. quickly apply for passport for ah dot and left for malacca 180908…

Daniel is travelling tonight on a plane
I can see the red tail lights heading for *Spain
Oh and I can see Daniel waving goodbye
God it looks like Daniel, must be the clouds in my eyes

*i wish it was only spain

~ Daniel 1976-2008 ~

dear daniel,

i was there last night. wonder if you heard popo crying. it was very difficult for me to look at you, a familiar face lying motionless in the box. where’s the laugh? sorry i didn’t keep you in touch all these years. hope you were happy. your kids are lovely. it broke my heart when i met your wife. broke my heart more when she say ,’my children now have an incomplete family.’ all i can do was to hold her hands and cry our hearts out together. did i tell you she’s very pretty? she felt lost, lost beacuse you didn’t tell her anything before you leaft. lost becuase she lost you. i met your dad too - the happy big man but last night, he looked frail and his hair have turned all grey. he stil have that joking voice but as we chat, he broke down. he was sad he couldn’t save you even with CPR that night. he was sad, you were his only dearest son.

do you remember when you were 8, i sat behind you on your bicycle as you show me how fast you can cycle? we zoom round and round your kampong and when we were about to reach you gate the final time, i got flung out of your bicycle because i waved at popo? the scar on my right hip is still there.

we have all grown up and grown apart and distant, litterally, in different countries. i wonder if you have heard about Jesus. i hope that name was in your heart that night. why didn’t i remember to pray for you and your family, why didn’t i tell God about you. after last night, i’ve began remember that our family dunno Jesus and they may be gone before they even hear His name. i’m sorry, i’ve never pray for you. i will now. i will pray for your wife, your 2 kids and the rest of the gang who loved you.

daniel, thanks for all the little little memories you have given to me.

Love, 7th aunt

dorothy went for physio today. forgot to report to you, dear readers, she was born with club foot. i was taught to do some exercises at the hospital befor we were discharged. very hard to continuously do lah. she must be awake so can flex her her foot muscle. scratch the lateral side of her feet 10X2feetX6set…very hard to achive in the earlier months cuz whenever she’s awake she wailing or i feeding her or changing diaper then she sleep back…HOW TO DO?!

feel bad last night cuz i didn’t do the physio then panic sets in. what if because MUMMY didn’t do the exercise she cannot stand properly? what if MUMMY didn’t do the exercise she cannot walk properly? what if MUMMMY didn’t do the exercise she wil be outcast by her peers next time? ahhh…

with a panic heart i went to sleep.

*DING* woke up! today i got to send victoria with my bikermice. so long didn’t pak tor. after that, we walk to hawker centre from her school then eat so much so much…hah! so much for trying to lose weight, bikermice. not me, i still need my 4000calories to breastfeed. heh heh…

SO after that we went physio. panic, panic! will the therapist give me bad report ’sorry your child need op to straighten her legs BECAUSE YOU, THE MOTHER, DIDN’T DO THER EXERCISE!’ ggaaaahhh…

while waiting, i saw a little baby with gadget over her face – clipping her nose to her mouth. she’s got cleft lips. my heart break. i can;t help but start my kpo mother conversation. her mother was still cheery. say the clipping is to prepare her for lips op. the baby still can make sound like normal baby. i thought she’s 2-3months but she already 5months and 1/2 of dorothy size. with her lips cannot breastfeed so the mom gonna pump and give bottle. as a mother to not being able to breastfeed is very sad. well for me at least. seeing the cleftlip baby, dorothy’s club foot dun seem worrying any more.

oops! my turn to see the physio. heart pounding!! check check…therapist say ‘oh good improvement!’ taught me 2 more new exercise – more achiveable and more fun to do heh heh and say she should be able to be discahrge after the next appointment. HOORAY! she’s not gonna be outcast by her peers!!

so first was the cleft lip baby that breaksmy tofu heart. next its this blog - moved me to tears by him today. but i was very encouraged today…

yikes! dorothy wake up liao, gotta feed her! continue the above sooon

come see my shortcut blog…

victoria was having her bath in a bath tub yesterday (the water is left over from dorothy’s bath – i’m saving water, give me a medal!) she place a towel over body and say…

victoria: mummy you see, so sexy!

mum: …

argh! who taught her that sia! i told her not to use that word anymore, does that solve the problem…help!

since i started work last week i no time to blog man! i have so much to tell you…be patiece with me, i’ll blog i promise…ahhh so much to say!!!