scared this scared that
i work with some old people in my organisation. because they are old..well…they tend to get sick, stroke or the worstest we…not really worst…go home to be with the Lord.
so far, some stroke, some gone home to be with the Lord already and one recently suffered from stroke, and a fall when he could walk already. my parents also are getting older by the days. thankfully they are full of energy but also have problem.
-dad’s fell from 4th story and fracture his pelvis ions again
-then kena open hear surgery cuz of by pass
-then kena stroke after
-then fainted in the toilet while poo-pooing and bump his head
but thank God for all His protection, he survived all those ordeal and even became stronger after.
then is my mom.
-she’s got fainting spell all the time
-then dignosed almost-diabetes. i say almost cuz she no need medication just needa curb diet and she feel that its the end of the world…drama queen…oh man i got the drama part from her!!
-long ago, she had some woman’s problem, some thing to do with her uterus. but she don’t remember exactly what just say her uterus was remove and she doesn’t even know if its cancer. cuz if its cancer means…i MAY kena!
since i gave birth to my 2 princesses, i fear i will die early. i won’t get a chance to see them to school, scrutinise their boyfriends, i won’t get to see them married…worst, my bikermice will dress them horribly. i know you prob think why i worried the latter. they are girls lah, i dun want them to be wearing their PJ out and thinking its ok ha ha ha
someone die of bone cancer and left kids behind. wabiang i so sad to hear that, then reminded me my granduncle died of that too but of course ultimately pneumonia that killed him. anyway cut story short, i have knee joint pain, and tondonitis..those are bones too…i worried i have bone cancer.
then i worried i have cervical cancer (pep smear-ed already, all clear! thank God!) then i saw bruise at the side of my both breast, then i worried i got breast cancer, checked website, they say it could blood vessle burst, not so bad no need see doc unless painful.
worried this and that…tempted to do a full body check up to ease my mind but so BLEEEEEDY EXPENSIVE! why not give free to everyone leh? no wonder they say poor people die first.
but i always, everyday tell myself, my life here is only temporary and i must make full use of it and do my best as a mother, daughter and worker…and take good care of my boby given by God.
spend each second meaningfully, bless someone today.
will ya?
