tete-a-tete

today, i have dare dare left dorothy at home to accomplish my one million and one thing. whenver i think about the baby or even typing this, i can feel my ‘milk bar’ filling up. i can only resume my motherly duty 6 hourse later, pray that boobs will not leak cuz i got no breast pad today! yikes! it will be such a sight for the kids ha ha ha ha!!!

i hope dorothy WILL NOT struggle with milk bottle today and just enjoy the ‘ice cream’ breastmilk ha ha…

oh ma ma i miss her… and her…

Dear God,
as i’m preparing for the children program now, i pray that you will prepare the hearts of the kids who will be learning about John3:16. May they feel your love. I pray for Shirley who’s leading the most important part of today’s program to teach the children ‘do you believe?’. use us fully, Lord.

Amen.

so many things happen last week

-met an old friend on FaceBook, realise his son died couple of years ago. read blog felt so sad but was encouraged by friend at the same time

-met the cleft lip baby girl

-got problem with some christians, never felt so heavy before.

-got problem with some non-christians, never felt so heavy before.

-talk a friend who’s struggling with being aimless in life (God help him!)

-death of my nephew

well on a lighter note…

-dorothy is preparing flip completely. now she reach 90degree already

and she so pretty now

-start face painting. i’m addicted to it. doing it again on 28 Sept for children’s day.

-found my very first prayer partner

-my period is back (not so lighter note, quite heavy kekeke…cramps yucks!) but also mean i’m releasing eggs again!

-victoria learnt to say 1-5 in bahasa indonesia. made a deal with my trusty helper ms Thiam, if victoria can say 1-10 in bahasa indonesia, i’ll give her $10 to which she say ,’huh? so little?’ ha ha…deal is stil on, victoria is not achieveing anything yet…hur hur hur…come and get the ten dollar neh ni neh ni boo booooo…

-STILL breastfeeding.

NO THAT DANIEL YOU ARE THINKING OF LAH! beter make myself clear before you become concern n start calling me and asking me ‘WHAT HAPPEN HUH?’ heh heh…i know you’re concern for me lah *blush*blush* kekeke…

anyway let’s not spoil the mood…ahem…

my nephew passed away 160908 night. received the news, heart stopped a second. called niece and cry together. quickly apply for passport for ah dot and left for malacca 180908…

Daniel is travelling tonight on a plane
I can see the red tail lights heading for *Spain
Oh and I can see Daniel waving goodbye
God it looks like Daniel, must be the clouds in my eyes

*i wish it was only spain

~ Daniel 1976-2008 ~

dear daniel,

i was there last night. wonder if you heard popo crying. it was very difficult for me to look at you, a familiar face lying motionless in the box. where’s the laugh? sorry i didn’t keep you in touch all these years. hope you were happy. your kids are lovely. it broke my heart when i met your wife. broke my heart more when she say ,’my children now have an incomplete family.’ all i can do was to hold her hands and cry our hearts out together. did i tell you she’s very pretty? she felt lost, lost beacuse you didn’t tell her anything before you leaft. lost becuase she lost you. i met your dad too - the happy big man but last night, he looked frail and his hair have turned all grey. he stil have that joking voice but as we chat, he broke down. he was sad he couldn’t save you even with CPR that night. he was sad, you were his only dearest son.

do you remember when you were 8, i sat behind you on your bicycle as you show me how fast you can cycle? we zoom round and round your kampong and when we were about to reach you gate the final time, i got flung out of your bicycle because i waved at popo? the scar on my right hip is still there.

we have all grown up and grown apart and distant, litterally, in different countries. i wonder if you have heard about Jesus. i hope that name was in your heart that night. why didn’t i remember to pray for you and your family, why didn’t i tell God about you. after last night, i’ve began remember that our family dunno Jesus and they may be gone before they even hear His name. i’m sorry, i’ve never pray for you. i will now. i will pray for your wife, your 2 kids and the rest of the gang who loved you.

daniel, thanks for all the little little memories you have given to me.

Love, 7th aunt