children
dorothy went for physio today. forgot to report to you, dear readers, she was born with club foot. i was taught to do some exercises at the hospital befor we were discharged. very hard to continuously do lah. she must be awake so can flex her her foot muscle. scratch the lateral side of her feet 10X2feetX6set…very hard to achive in the earlier months cuz whenever she’s awake she wailing or i feeding her or changing diaper then she sleep back…HOW TO DO?!
feel bad last night cuz i didn’t do the physio then panic sets in. what if because MUMMY didn’t do the exercise she cannot stand properly? what if MUMMY didn’t do the exercise she cannot walk properly? what if MUMMMY didn’t do the exercise she wil be outcast by her peers next time? ahhh…
with a panic heart i went to sleep.
*DING* woke up! today i got to send victoria with my bikermice. so long didn’t pak tor. after that, we walk to hawker centre from her school then eat so much so much…hah! so much for trying to lose weight, bikermice. not me, i still need my 4000calories to breastfeed. heh heh…
SO after that we went physio. panic, panic! will the therapist give me bad report ’sorry your child need op to straighten her legs BECAUSE YOU, THE MOTHER, DIDN’T DO THER EXERCISE!’ ggaaaahhh…
while waiting, i saw a little baby with gadget over her face – clipping her nose to her mouth. she’s got cleft lips. my heart break. i can;t help but start my kpo mother conversation. her mother was still cheery. say the clipping is to prepare her for lips op. the baby still can make sound like normal baby. i thought she’s 2-3months but she already 5months and 1/2 of dorothy size. with her lips cannot breastfeed so the mom gonna pump and give bottle. as a mother to not being able to breastfeed is very sad. well for me at least. seeing the cleftlip baby, dorothy’s club foot dun seem worrying any more.
oops! my turn to see the physio. heart pounding!! check check…therapist say ‘oh good improvement!’ taught me 2 more new exercise – more achiveable and more fun to do heh heh and say she should be able to be discahrge after the next appointment. HOORAY! she’s not gonna be outcast by her peers!!
so first was the cleft lip baby that breaksmy tofu heart. next its this blog - moved me to tears by him today. but i was very encouraged today…
yikes! dorothy wake up liao, gotta feed her! continue the above sooon
